I attended a meeting of Christians focused on prayer Saturday morning. I have been attending this group to see if my current stance on Christianity would be reinforced or reversed. It has been reinforced.
Jesus is a person, according to the teaching. You can talk with him. He will comfort you. He will guide you.
During an individual session, I told the leader of the local group that I had talked with “spirit guides” through a medium. I also once had a telepathic person tell me that Jesus was right behind me. The leader very briefly winced. I called him on it. He had some doubts because delusional people on the streets could make such a claim. I agreed and reminded him that indeed he was making such a claim from the front of the group.
I continued. If we believe in immortal spirits, how do you know which spirit you are talking to? He hadn’t considered it. Well, I’ve been in that position. I had to consider it.
It wasn’t until later that I remembered the difference. My “spirit guides” (I continue to use the quotes in recognition of the raised eyebrows you may be experiencing) had egos. They had names and each was proud of their accomplishments while alive. They also had a sense of what I would be or should be doing and how important they are in my process. They said things about me that I found to be quite emotional. I went through several tissues during the thirty minutes or so. Contrast that to a different “spirit”.
Another experience with a “spirit” was also quite emotional. It had no ego. It had no judgement and refused to give a name. I can only describe the experience as one of pure love. I was usually in uncontrollable tears.
I asked about behavior of people that I certainly had some judgements about and was told I had no idea what the people were going through. The spirit seemed to understand and loved the people. It appreciated them for what they were doing.
Doesn’t it make sense that your Creator understands you and knows what is going through your head and your heart? Can you imagine that your Creator looks at you with compassion and love, not judgment and hate?
After many sessions conversing with that spirit, we asked if it was God. The reply was, “Based on your experience, would it matter if I said yes, or no?”
It would not matter. My life was changed. I no longer believe in a judgmental God who needs sacrifice to forgive our sins. I believe in a God of love that is having an experience through us. If it turns out that I am wrong, I will be very disappointed.
The session today included Luke 11:11-13, “Which of you fathers, if your son asks for a fish, will give him a snake instead? Or if he asks for an egg, will give him a scorpion. If you then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him!”
As for me, I feel blessed. I only wish the same for you. It doesn’t have to be a matter of faith. It is okay to think it through.